Saturday
What a lovely day here, cool and cloudy in the morning, and sunny now. I only have 4 more overnight shifts left to work. I went to bed as soon as I could this morning and slept as long as I could stand and my head feels fuzzy and I am having difficulty with fine motor control. I'm grinding my teeth.
What am I going to do once I no longer havemy tirerdness as an excuse for why I am sometimes forgetful or disorganized? I created a schedule for the fall and I have so many empty spaces. This of course means that I have much time to focus on revenue. I just have to fit it all together gracefully. I am very good at multitasking and there have been times in the last 18 months that I have been absolutely amazed. I would be puzzling over how I could pay this bill or afford something for the boys when some opportunity would drop into my lap and somehow I would squeek by. The problems came when I started equating every waking moment with money making moments and I felt worthless if I was "wasting my time" doing little things like taking time to visit with other mom's at the elementary school.
I don't know what I will do about the still life.... I thought I would knit it or felt it or hook it or something..... but it is due on the 28th... and look at it(simplestilllife'dot'blogspot'dot'com)you see what I mean?...then I remembered my birthday. I had the perfect day. One of our neighbor girls has grown up to be a very fine baker as well as a good Mom. I asked her to help me make a cake(I have a hard time focusing even doing things I like) She agreed but she was in desparate need for someone to watch her 3 year old for a couple of hours that afternoon. So I played downtown for a while in the morning, then played at my house with a very sweet little girl. My 9 year old and 14 year old took over and orchestrated a water fight while Stephanie made not one, but 2 cakes. Light, tasty cakes that were stacked with fresh fruit and whipped cream. To make a long explaination short - and to bring it back to the still life, one of the elements is a baby boot, that day was my babyboot. Life is always an adventure when you are with a 3 year old. The sense of wonder and play. The beginning command of the language. How cute they are when they finally fall asleep. I don't know how I will experience the other elements. I am off to try and I guess I will know when I get there.
What am I going to do once I no longer havemy tirerdness as an excuse for why I am sometimes forgetful or disorganized? I created a schedule for the fall and I have so many empty spaces. This of course means that I have much time to focus on revenue. I just have to fit it all together gracefully. I am very good at multitasking and there have been times in the last 18 months that I have been absolutely amazed. I would be puzzling over how I could pay this bill or afford something for the boys when some opportunity would drop into my lap and somehow I would squeek by. The problems came when I started equating every waking moment with money making moments and I felt worthless if I was "wasting my time" doing little things like taking time to visit with other mom's at the elementary school.
I don't know what I will do about the still life.... I thought I would knit it or felt it or hook it or something..... but it is due on the 28th... and look at it(simplestilllife'dot'blogspot'dot'com)you see what I mean?...then I remembered my birthday. I had the perfect day. One of our neighbor girls has grown up to be a very fine baker as well as a good Mom. I asked her to help me make a cake(I have a hard time focusing even doing things I like) She agreed but she was in desparate need for someone to watch her 3 year old for a couple of hours that afternoon. So I played downtown for a while in the morning, then played at my house with a very sweet little girl. My 9 year old and 14 year old took over and orchestrated a water fight while Stephanie made not one, but 2 cakes. Light, tasty cakes that were stacked with fresh fruit and whipped cream. To make a long explaination short - and to bring it back to the still life, one of the elements is a baby boot, that day was my babyboot. Life is always an adventure when you are with a 3 year old. The sense of wonder and play. The beginning command of the language. How cute they are when they finally fall asleep. I don't know how I will experience the other elements. I am off to try and I guess I will know when I get there.
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